At the grocery store close to our house you have to put your bags in a locker before you can go in. We have learned this over time, but today we went in and there were no open lockers so I just stuck my bag in an open slot with no door. A lady I guess was telling me I couldn’t do it. So I asked her what I should do, and she pointed to a keyhole. I said there were no keys, what should we do? And she said something I didn’t understand, so Charity just went in without me and I figured out that all the other people were just standing there waiting for someone with a key to come and get their stuff. Then they would take that locker, like parking spaces during Christmas shopping. So there was this whole group of people waiting to get into the grocery store, just standing there right outside the entrance.
It wasn’t a big deal, and I think I was a little short with the lady, but I was trying hard not to get upset or rude, so I don’t think it was too bad. But I was definitely not patient at all and I think it showed. No harm done from what I could tell, but it was not our best moment either. It just gets hard some days with things being so different. Part of my short-temper is because I still have not bounced back from yesterday. We talked with our coordinator and found out that once court is over, assuming we get approved, Lord willing, we will wait our 2 weeks then possibly another 3-4.
She said it takes that long to do all the things they have to do with paperwork and all that stuff. We’re not sure exactly what that means, but it’s somewhere in the ballpark of an extra 2-4 weeks here, which was really, really discouraging. We felt like we were about half way through, but if that’s true we are still a few weeks from even being half way. We still don’t know what to make of it, and we are praying about it, but we are not sure how to pray.
That causes problems in several areas, and we aren’t sure if we just have to deal with it and ask that God would give us grace and work these areas out. Or should we really pray hard for him to do miraculous things and make it go a lot faster and still get us home about when we thought we would? And how will we know either way? I don’t see that we will. I think we will just find out when it happens.
It was really one of those spirit-crushing kind of moments for both of us. I told both my jobs that I would be back in around 2 months, and even while they may be flexible it still causes some problems with what I need to be doing. Money could also be a factor if we wind up here a month longer. We just did not prepare to be here that long. That’s not a major concern at this point, but it is in the back of my mind. There are some faimly things that are semi-pressing at home. Plus we are just ready to be home. We were sort of mentally prepared for 2 months, but much longer than that and it’s sort of a different game mentally. We just weren’t ready for it, and it just makes things harder.
So now we are both really feeling that, and today we are still sort of reeling, I think. It’s been a weird day, and we are both a little sick, so it’s just sort of a difficult time. God is absolutely in control. We don’t doubt that. We know his timing is best. We know he might have plans that we did not. We understand all that and more than anything want to be submissive and respond to it all in faith and live with hope and belief. Practically right now it’s just hard. I definitely felt a little hopeless yesterday, and I felt like I was praying and struggling to respond in faith. I just felt broken.
These kind of moments are usually ultimately good, and I know that and actually look forward to the continued refining that comes from it, but it is still not fun and sort of painful. And it just feels like a bad situation to us. It’s hard to be optimistic. As I process what I am writing, please know that I am just pouring right now. I am not purposefully writing, so this is all raw emotion. I am not as down and out as this all sounds, and we really are still hopeful as an overall tone. No need to send out the hug train to come find us. It’s just a hard few days. We’ll see how things work out. God’s big. He’s good, and he does good things. He is our hope. His love is faithful love. So we’re going to be fine. This is just a sort of punch in the gut.
BUT, there is good news. Our pre-court date is tomorrow morning (10am Thursday our time). So that is a step in the right direction. We are a little nervous, but we have heard this is little more than meeting the judge and setting a court date. We are not sure how long it will last, but we have to dress up and all that. Pray that he will already love us. I think the other people we knew from got a court date a few days after pre-court, so maybe that means like Monday or something. We’ll see. That is all speculation, and it seems like you never know what will happen.
Keep praying for a quick court date. Pray that these other time esitamtes will be shortened like crazy. Pray for very much acceptance and favor with the judge. Pray that the one weird situation will not even be an issue tomorrow or when we make it to court. Pray for a “yes.” Pray for peace in our minds. Pray for an appropriate level of faith and perseverance.
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