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thoughts on specific answers to specific questions

Today is a lot of rain. Everyday these days is a lot of rain. It’s one of those meditative kinds of days, as most rainy days are. I’ve been thinking about Kazakhstan today. It’s such a weird thing that we have days where we sort of long for a place that we were so anxious to leave. God has put so much into our hearts that came from Kazakhstan that we are forever linked to that place.

I remembered certain rooms and certain days. I remembered the snowy and rainy days. I remembered the warmth of the ever-burning furnace and the people, people that we now miss.

As I was thinking about this a good friend of mine that I don’t get to spend enough time with anymore, Ragan, sent me an email with an attachment of a song that he has been singing recently. He wrote it in response to a blog post that we made while we were in Kazakhstan where we referenced Malachi 1:5. The song is called Everything Moves and comes from the idea that everything moves in response to the One who created it, whether that thing knows its source of movement or not.

Hearing it and thinking about it made me go back to read that blog post, and it was a good trip down the lane of memories. You can see the post here:

http://tinyurl.com/r5ya48

I remember that situation and those days so vividly, like they just happened a few weeks ago. I can remember being overwhelmed at who God is and what he was doing right in front of our faces. We were actually seeing God answer prayers right there as we sat in an office. Charity and I were talking yesterday about suffering and how God always seems to teach us more in those times than in the easy times. And we definitely had some of both in Kstan, but God was teaching us so much in those dark, trying days. He was refining us, making us his and into who he wanted us to be. He was shaping us in those days.

And he is still shaping us. How quickly we have lost sight of the fact that everything moves in response to the Lord. EVERYTHING. Whether they know him or not, whether they willingly submit to him or not, whether they cherish him or not – everything moves in response to him. The Lord truly is great beyond the borders of Israel, beyond the “borders” of his church or his people. His power is over everything in creation, and everything takes its lead from him.

What a good reminder that is. It is good to be reminded of the faithfulness of the Lord and his power. It is good to be reminded of how small I am and how intimately involved God is in the intricate details of every life. We struggle sometimes these days in what God might be doing in Sam, how he is answering our prayers. This serves as a good reminder that everything moves in response to Him.

Now, here’s Sam:


it’s good to remember

Hey people, anyone who happens to still be checking this. We are going to try our best to get back up and running with posting and updating. We’ve thought a lot about all the family blogs out there and how they are used and viewed, and decided to try to get on this again. A lot of what we post will hopefully have a focus of how Sam is adjusting, what we are learning, and how adoption is affecting and has affected our lives and his. We’ll see what happens.

I received a video today from a family who met Sam back in 2008. It was cool and prompted me to look back through some old blogs and pictures. I didn’t have a lot of time, but in ten minutes or so, it really took me back. I remembered some of the feelings we had and the things we went through together. I remembered many of the people. I just remembered. It’s good to remember. It’s good to reflect.

I quickly forget how profoundly we changed in the three months we lived in Karaganda, Kazakhstan. Our lives were so impacted by a people in general, specific people, experiences, a baby house filled with children, and so many other things. The rooms we spent time in came back to me. The parks and the snow followed by the sun. So many things came back to me, even if just for a few minutes, and it was good.

Brining all this back with us has surely changed us, and we are so much beter for it. God has been so incredibly real to us, and we have had some challenging moments in our 6 or so weeks here, but our lives are richer, both by adding Sam abd by carrying all the “luggage” that we now carry, both good and bad. It’s weird to say that in some ways we miss our time in Kazakhstan. It might sound surprising, and honestly it’s surprising to me, but our lives were so significantly affected by so many things there, that it’s hard to just return. Things will never be the same. And if I’m being completely honest, I am not sure I want to completely “return.” I’m not sure I want things to ever be the same again.

Where it goes from here I have no idea, and I’m not sure what our future looks like, but I am glad to have experienced something so deeply that is has affected my spirit, my actions, my loves, my character, my motivations.  I’m glad to have lived and experienced and be still experiencing. Walking on roads like this, only starting to understand faith, has become to me a very rich and priceless thing.


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